Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Destined to fail...but I can't help myself!

So...the nice guy?  Turns out to be pretty much perfect from what I have learned thus far.  He hates country music, loves dessert, loves Christmas, was a psyc major, plays guitar, SINGS, and do I need to go on?  He's basically the male version of me...minus the musical talent, I have absolutely  none of that.  Still have not met him, but the pictures I have seen lead me to believe he is also attractive.  We will have our first date on Satuday, when he comes to take me out for my birthday.  I'm seriously concerned.  He's so nice and perfect there's no way I won't fall for him, and I know that it is destined to fail.  He lives two hours away and we are both hurting in the finance area and there is the small detail that I usually get screwed over in relationships.  But did I mention he sings?  Ah, fuck it.  I know I'm too quick to put my heart out there but I would rather take a chance and put myself out there than to be alone forever.  Remind me I said this when I am pissed and crushed in a couple weeks. 

He says he's not into games or flings, and niether am I.  This is what freaks me out.  We are either going to get into someting serious or break it off fairly early.  So I will either be heart broken in the long run or in the near future.  Hmmm...I think I will ride out the excitement of the possibility of a relationship as long as I can.  This could be an awkward first date.  We have never met, only talked on the phone almost every day for about two weeks.  Hopefully neither one of us is disappointed in person...oh boy this could be disastrous.  I'm sure I will have great details to report after Saturday. 

If I had any common sense I would get out now before it gets too serious but...did I mention he sings?  Ahhh!  This may be what it takes for now and then I will be back at square one.  I'm takin what I can get for the moment and I'll worry about the rest later. 

Saturday, November 13, 2010

A nice guy? What is that?

Ok, so in my previous post I mentioned a guy that I had started chatting with via email.  Well, I added this guy on Facebook, I new of him because he is my boss's brother...yeah.  Not sure this is a good idea but what the hell, whatever it takes right?  Anyway, I did not expect anything when I added him.  He sent me a message asking how I liked working for his sister and I politely replied and I figured that would be the end of it.  However, he sends me a message a couple days later apologizing for not being in contact for a few days...totally caught me off guard.  Last guy I had a fling with, (refer to the post about me puking in the bar he worked in) was sporadic and never apologized for being out of touch.  So we have been emailing, getting to know each other, it has been fun but again I didn't expect much else out of it, then he calls me today.  I just don't know what to do with a guy who calls when he says he's going to call and apologizes for not repsonding in a timely manner.  Do such men really exist?  I'm starting to think I have found one of the only ones, which leads me to believe this is going to be the end of me.  He also plays the guitar.  If he sings too I'm throwing my arms up in surrender and throwing myself at him with everything I've got.  Yes, I know that plan is destined to fail but what do I have to lose?  Exactly.  Only my pride and that has been gone for awhile. 

I have never dated a nice guy before, and we aren't dating per say but I don't even know what to do with a nice guy.  I have also mentioned in a previous post that I have the great ability to get excited entirely too early, which usually leaves me incredibly disappointed but I never learn.  Now that I do know such men exist, I am slightly more hopeful for the remainder of my life.  This could be trouble, only time will tell.

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

The male species can suck its own dick.

Dear Male Species,

You suck and I hate you.  This is due to multiple reasons.  One:  because you "don't know what you want" and can "just want to have fun" for the rest of your pathetic LIVES and be perfectly content.  Two:  even when a girl decides to "not care anymore" we do.  Even if we don't want to be with you we want to be in control and tell YOU that it's over.  Not the other way around, boys, no no no.  We want to call the shots but that never happens because of reason three of why I hate you:  you are always the one calling the shots because we are so easily caught up in you, we don't even realize it until it is too late.  If all of this is true, then why do we keep coming back to you?  I'll tell you why, it's called reason 4:  you have the ability to change our minds just when we decide that you all suck, but you always have to wait until we get to that point first.  Screw you guys. 

And why do I only attract males of one age group that are all from the same city which is located two hours away from where I live?  Seriously, this is the third guy of the same age from the same damn city that has expressed interest in me.  What. the. fuck.  So obviously I have a new male friend that has made me not quite give up on the male species right when I was ready to say fuck you and be done with all of you.  Right now we are just getting to know each other through emails...but he seems really nice and I have the amazing ability to get excited about things within seconds.  I told myself this would just be a fun thing and I wouldn't get excited about it but....shit, too late.  This means I am about to get disappointed and pissed. 

That my friends, is why the male species can suck its own dick, even though if they could they wouldn't need us and would be perfectly content by themselves.  I think that is reason FIVE.