Sunday, January 30, 2011

Help me cure cancer!!!

Hello to anyone who may stop by this blog.  I am running a marathon to help raise money to find a cure for blood cancer.  Please visit my website to see how YOU can help in the fight, why this is so important, and what it means to me.

I greatly appreciate anyone who helps me in supporting this amazing cause and even if you just visit the website, it would mean a lot to me.  Feel free to pass this on to anyone you think would help.  Our work is not done until we find a cure and we need all the support we can get to get there. 

Thursday, January 20, 2011

I need to buy some fucking band aids...

Lately, I have been stressed beyond belief.  My current job is at a really stressful point in the year, there is a lot of pressure to meet goals and this is not the best time in the economy for a nonprofit to do so.  I was also just offered a new job, which I accepted.  I'm very excited about the new job, but it means moving for the 6th time in the past year.  Holy mother of moving this is going to suck because it's colder than a witch's vagina outside right now.  The job was also a paycut.  Awesome.  The things I do to be happy. 

Annnnyways...I had quite the day today.  Last night I cut my big toe pretty fiercly.  It was bleeding heavily and I'm searching and searching for a band aid only to find out that my ex-fiance has all of the fucking band aids.  I taped paper towels to my toe to attempt to stop the bleeding, which I had to repeat multiple times.  Just another reminder of how much of an ass he is, couldn't even give me some of the band aids.  That was just the start of my bad day.  The next morning I had to get up at 4:30 to be at a news interview for work.  I could not sleep for the life of me and when my alarm went off at 4:30 I felt like it was only to mock me, knowing I never fell asleep, what a bitch.  On my way to the news interview, I spilled water all over my pants.  Great.  I'm going to be on TV and it looks like I pissed my pants.  I'm sure that will be awesome publicity for work.  Luckily it dried faster than I expected and wasn't that bad.  (I also decided I had a crush on the weather man while I waited for my interview :] )  So, I go about my day hoping that was the end of my clumsiness but it was not true.  On my way to my car from a meeting, the cart I was pulling with all of my meeting materials just decided to break in half without warning, sending my box of shit flying all over the side walk.  It was also -20 degrees outside as I scrambled to put all of said shit back in box as people walk and drive by looking sympathetically at me but not stopping to help.  Thanks guys, you making me feel even more pathetic really helps me pick everything up with my icicle fingers.  I finally get home and decide to grill a hot dog on the George for dinner and I'm plugging the grill in but it's not turning on, I keep messing with this for a good five minutes, getting thoroughly upset because I'm starving and it's been a long fricken day, when I finally figure out that the reason it won't turn on is becuase I was plugging in the toaster oven not the grill.  It was at this point that I realized I need a vacation and that I have officially lost my effing mind.

Tomorrow is Friday.  Thank the lord of all that is holy. 

Monday, January 17, 2011

Dude, why do you even have a blog...

So I have been thinking lately and if someone came across this blog and noticed that there are no followers the question of why I even keep this blog may cross their mind.  Well, this post should clear that right up.  I do not blog for people to follow me, if I acquire followers, great!  If not, ok.  I blog for myself.  I may not be the best writer, in fact I know I am not because I follow some pretty amazing people on here, but that is not the point for me.  My blog is for me.  Whether it is helping me process my own thoughts or helping me to laugh at myself, I do this to cope with the random ass hand life dealt me.  I have also learned a very important lesson as I have gotten older:  if you can laugh at yourself you will be much happier and considering I am incredibly clumsy and often run into a glass door or two (just happened at the gym last week, no joke) it is much easier to laugh it off than to obsess over how packed the gym was when it happened and how hard I would fucking laugh if someone did that while I was watching.  This blog is me laughing at myself via the web.   I have always been one to write when I'm upset, it helps me deal with things but that doesn't mean it interesting or exciting stuff.  It is just what comes out at the time.  So there you have it random passer by, I blog for me and if there are those who want to follow I welcome them but if not I will continue to blog anyways. 

Monday, January 3, 2011

2011 - You owe me, but I won't hold by breath.

Welcome to the new year!  Quite frankly 2010 sucked major ass.  Sure I graduated from college and got a job and that I am thankful for.  But there was a lot of suckiness in between there that I am  more than happy to leave behind and start over.  I love how a simple change of one digit in the year can make you feel like you have a fresh start and the world is at your finger tips again.  I am a pessimist by nature, but even I am excited about the new possibilities that 2011 could hold.  I am also an avid goal setter.  What are my goals for 2011?  Besides becoming famous and winning the lottery, I have decided on a few simple ways to improve my life. 

Number one:  I am going to be healthier in as many aspects as I can.  I have already joined a gym and have really been enjoying it.  I'm done with feeling like a piece of shit, I was a collegiate athlete and laziness should not be in my vocabulary.  I want to become toned and get back to being able to run competitively.  I also need to change my eating habits.  The microwave meals, fast food, and skipping meals thing has got to stop.  Now that I am working out I can tell that I am lacking on a few nutrients and I did not realize how much this was affecting my body until now.  Turns out, your hands should not shake on a daily basis, who knew? 

Number two:  My tendency to rush into things needs to be contained now that I am aware of it.  This includes all aspects of my life.  I have already failed at this with working out, I will do the elliptical for 30 minutes, run on the treadmill for a couple miles and then think oh what the hell and bike for another couple miles.  Terrible idea.  It always ends with me barely being able to walk by the time I get home.  I have realized that this is how I do everything in my life, I rush into it and try to do it all.  This includes relationships, and that is my priority for the new year:  do not rush into relationships.  I need to learn to be patient and not settle for the first thing that comes along and if something great does come along, I need to chill the fuck out and let it happen at it's own pace without me trying to figure out what is going to happen in the next five minutes, five days, or five years.  I know that part of this is my nature and I will not be able to completely get rid of it, but my hope is that I will at least think things through a little more and not be so hasty. 

And that's it.  Two goals, but I believe they are two very important goals that will present many challenges within them.  So, my hope is like that everyone else, that 2011 will bring great things into my life to make up for how much of a mother fucker 2010 was.  Only time will tell if we are all going to tortured for another year or if just maybe there will be a few breaks in the torture cycle to allow a little bit of happiness in.  As long as there are a few bits of sunshine to break up the hurricane of my life, I will be happy.  And for a pessimist, I think that is pretty optimistic :).